yes, it blows

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by Ger Dekker

I was only in one scene directed by the legend, the great, the slut-astic Ms. Sasha Grey and it was AMAZING. She is such a great director. She is unlike any other I have worked for before! One thing she does that I loved was carry a notebook with her (I am a huge fan of the notebook, making lists and whatnot) and really directs. She writes down before hand what she wants a scene to be and from what I could tell doesnt venture off from her written notes. She is very hands on and if perhaps something doesn’t match her notes or if her actors have suggestions she checks her notes, sees if it works, then acts accordingly. As a pornstar who likes to offer my opinion frequently I LOVE THIS. Because most directors will just shut your idea down and make you feel like a fucking moron for thinking you, the talent, had a good idea. What she would do is see if the idea worked with her notes, if it didn’t she would explain why not and had proof. Directors in porn are kinda like “Im an adult so you do what I say” type mentality. Maybe because she was a rockin pornstar before directing that she understood that you wanna keep your talent happy and feeling confident during a shoot. Being condescending or shutting down suggestions totally affects a scene. You get a pouty pornstar, I promise you that. Not cute. 

In porn, its very instructed. “New position, fix the position, I cant see enough pussy!!!” Which is great, but with Sasha she did heavy directing until it was time for the sex. Then she left it up to Ruby and I to get into the craziest bathroom stall I have ever seen or been in (well besides the one at Double Daughters, a bar in Denver) and fuck. Now maybe it was because we already had a chemistry going before the scene stared and Grey trusted that we could blow that scene out of the water but being able to just fuck and have the director and camera man work around us made the scene more authentic and just BETTER. You be the judge. I have the scene if you wanna see. Its my baby so few have laid eyes on it. 

I wish I could have been in another one of her scenes! I was suppose to actually, like the very next day but I was set up with Jaime Langford and I had to cancel the scene. I refuse to fuck a girl with the word “NIGGERS” tatted on the inside of her bottom lip. Oh but in her defense, it went with her besties’ tattoo that read “FUCK” on the inside of her bottom lip. Girls can be real pieces of shit sometime. Well most of the time. Alas, no more Sasha Grey scenes for me :(

Thanks for reading this. Wanna see all stills from the scene let me know!

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         A question that I get quite often is “Will you ever do anal on screen or do you have any anal scenes out?” And the answer is no, no anal….yet. I always wanna keep that option open. I love anal in my private life. If I did on screen what I do behind closed doors you would see a triple anal scene from me, possibly. There are two things really, well maybe three, keeping me from doing that oh so high in demand anal scene.

1). It’s the last thing left on my “porno bucket list”. Meaning, I have done everything else in porn except the big A. After that I have nothing left to do in porn, I mean except more scenes if I want.  

2). When I do take it up the butt (which I try to keep to a minimum because I don’t want to be wearing diapers at 35 years old) it hurts SOOOOOOOO bad initially, if done wrong. That first pump into my ass is so painful it actually scares me. It is my asshole literally tearing. Tiny little tears! OUCH! It takes atleast one glass of wine to relax me and alot of massaging with a finger. Now usually I make this a bigger deal than it is, like when I get my blood drawn and the needle seems like a stabbing but really its just that little prick. Now if done right a dick can slip in and I’ll be like “Is it in?”. Which by the way is the only acceptable time to ask this question during sex and it be taken as a compliment to the dude!

3). I AM RETIRED. But I want to be back in making porn so bad! With Bree Olson retiring and Sasha Grey gone, Jenny Hendrix bowing out I feel like the industry is losing its star players! No disrespect to current pornstars doing the damn thing but come on, step yo game up! When I watch porn to help “get things started” it certainly isn’t any of the new shit out there. 

4). I know I said 3 things, shut up. I think anal would round out my pornstar career. I consider myself a pornstar, I always will be. I wont ever try and be an actress or singer or model wanting to shed her pornstar title while trying to make it in mainstream. That wont ever be me! Why would I want to get rid of this title? It is an awesome title! I don’t knock the ladies now branching out into other entertainment ventures but why act as though being in porn films was trudging through the muck (or fuck. Ba dum tsh)? 

So I want to end this blog with a question for you. Would you like to see me attempt an anal scene in the industry for a big company, Hustler, Penthouse, etc. and then be back doing scenes OR do my own anal scene (just the one) on a site all my own, like a site run by me? I truly value your opinion…sometimes.

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My cup size is a 34 B sometimes A on a bad “boob day”. Ever since I got my boobies I pictured how big these things would get! My mom has extremely small knockers and to be honest I never really thought I would follow suit. I mean, we arent even the same skin color and until I was about 13 I though I was adopted, or better yet stolen. What? My mom REALLY wanted a baby!

     Anyway, as I went thru my teen years and then into my early twenties I kept waiting for these suckers to grow. “GROW, DAMN YOU GROW!” But alas, they stay the same small B, full A. However! When its about a week before my “ladies days” my tits grow to a happy handful of a C cup. I love them then! If you ever catch me in public around this time and are like “hey Courtney, your having a great boob day, may I?” I will totally allow a grope fest! 

Even though I love boobies so much whether they be mine or some other girlies fun bags I just love them. Probably because I havent ever really had them. I remember when i first got into porn I couldnt wait to get the money for a boob job! I wanted one so bad and now with this new porn career I could afford them and not the kind you go down to Tijuana for, the great kind that look decent nude and/or clothed. 

                    THANK GOD I NEVER GOT THEM DONE!

Porn showed me how magnificent my tits are even if they are, uh, fun size instead of king size. They are pretty and I am actually surpirsed how many men (And women) prefer a natural lady. Now I am not so naive that I dont know that the girl with huge fake boobs gets the “I love big titties, small tits are horrible”. Good for them. To each his own. But i will never get fake boobs, although sometimes I do go back and forth on getting fake boobs tastefully, like a small c cup, something I could sport back home in front of my family and they would simply think I was finally eating right. Nothing huge like double Ds. 

But who knows, if my mom ever found out I would be devastated. The one thing she told me while I was gearing up for my come back to porn a year ago after my 2 year hiatus was ” You cant do anything to make me ashamed of you. If it makes you happy, it makes me happy. Porn, drugs, murder(i assume) but please dont ever alter your beautiful body with plastic surgery aka breast enlargement.” And I promised her I would remain the same, never letting a doc touch my chest. And when you get your extremely devoted Christian mother to accept your porn antics you dont push your luck!

So enjoy my small rack. Its perfect and its staying that way.

      So I finally did my show! FINALLY! If you listened first let me thank you! It was pretty much a mess, all over the place.

I hope that next week’s show is not gonna be as “all over the place” although Wedge did tell me that my first show will be nothing like my second show or any other show after that overall. God, i hope he is right! 

So tune in  next week when hopefully the show has more order and not so messy! 

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